Oscar M. Cantu

I sold my PSP recently on Half.com and have been selling a few of my movies slowly on there since before I listed the PSP. I was surprised it sold that quickly and for the price. Why did I sell it? It was just sitting here in my room not being used and collecting dust. Truth is, I never saw any games that screamed out “Oscar, BUY ME!!!”. Ah, I can’t be without a portable game system. So off we go to buy a Nintendo DS Lite. This little baby is SEXY!!! It’s so slick, shiny and slim. Best of all, there’s games that I actually want to play for it *gasp*. Unfortunately, the game I want was not in stock when I bought it – it was actually the last system in the store. No worries though, I’m waiting on the Invisible Shield for it before I actually start playing with it. For now, It’s in its protective bag being charged so it may be ready when I am. Know of any great games I should try out?

*UPDATE: I received the shield, installed it and have been playing Brain Age, Metroid Prime Hunters, and Texas Hold ‘Em ever since.

So much thinking lately it’s a wonder that I still have my sanity. Even then, I wonder if I even do still have that. I had a lot of fun learning and coding that Spacealaga game. It’s far from finished and has some bugs to work out, but over all I’m satisfied with it. It served it’s purpose – got my mind occupied, applied the new language I’m still learning, taught me some hands on about game programming and got me a ticket in that Xbox 360 contest. Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing, if I’m choosing the right paths, should I be somewhere else at this point in my life, do I really want someone in my life right now, do I need someone? Ok, maybe I know the answer to that last one, or maybe I just think I do. One thing for sure is I miss my dad so much and feel I need him – I know he will always live through me in my heart and mind, for he made a huge impact in my life and left so many footprints all over the place. I have all the guidance I could ever need at my disposal – question is, am I choosing the right ones? I hope I am. I think I am. I feel I am. I don’t know if I am – and that’s what scares me.

Looking for a parking space at school I noticed a lot more girls walking to class than guys. Yet, in most of my classes there are more guys than girls, I’ve even had classes where there were no girls! This leads me to a very important question – where are all those girls? The college of business definately has it’s share of women, but not enough to say “there are way more girls than guys at those classes”. This IS a mystery …

Wow, it’s been so long since I visited Blogger.com let alone this account. I had completely forgotten I had an account here. Looking back at my previous post two years ago on life changes, I remember I had written that shortly after a close friend of mine was involved in an accident that turned her life completely around. Oh how cruel time is. That very same post is now about ME! So many life changes that I have experienced in oh so little time, it’s a miracle I still have my sanity – at least I think I still have that. This just goes on to show how fragile and precious life truly is.

Funny how not so long ago we would all say “Merry Christmas!” You would even see big banners all over the place with those two little words that carry so much meaning. Then it turned to “Merry X-Mas!” I never really liked that phrase so I never used it, I guess many people felt the same way, because “Happy Holidays!” sneaked up on us little by little until it became accepted as the “official” saying from banners on businesses to holiday cards. What ever happened to saying “Merry Christmas!”? All of a sudden we are too concerned with someone being offended because we used the word “Christ” when in reality its only a few people that actually do get offended. Many people argue that the phrase is meant to generalize all the holidays. To them I say, Don’t be so Lazy! If you don’t like the name “Christ” then don’t use it. Simple as that, but don’t make the rest of us stop using it because a few people will get offended. Guess what? Now there’s a bunch of us that are getting offended because of that phrase. Why? Everywhere you look now you see “Happy Holidays!”, even the customer service reps. are saying it. Yet all these sales are mainly for one specific day. What day is that? CHRISTMAS! That’s right, it is not called HOLIDAYS. Are we going to start saying, “Happy December 25th!”? No. That would be stupid. Why? December 25th is the day we celebrate the birth of Jesus CHRIST. CHRISTmas. Yet the phrase and meaning has been lost in the mind and spirits of many. Sad indeed.

Life changes ever so quickly that you don’t even realize it most of the time. Choices always lead to consequences, but sometimes those consequences happen so fast that it will take you what seems forever to really take in what happened. It’s a wonder how just a couple of minutes could mean the rest of your life, or the cease of it. I believe everything happens for a reason, not a set faith, rather stepping stones for a larger picture. What seems to be a bad habit to some might lead to be a life saving one later on in that person’s life. Funny how things work out that way. It sometimes seems that all of a sudden we can see the guardian angel walking within us. A protector, if you will, it just seems so larger than life that you sometimes just feel so overwhelmed by it. Feel so minuscule thinking about how there are things so much bigger than you, someone(s) that watches over us and protects us, even if sometimes cannot stop the unavoidable. However, you feel as if you are forever in their debt but at the same time very much inspired by that experience as to say to yourself, “Live like you were dying” because you sometimes don’t get a second chance, of course that doesn’t mean for you to take any unnecessary risks or defy any type of laws. That saying just means to remember the little things in life, be patient, say “I love you” to the persons you care the most, do not leave in bad terms, ask the person you like out, don’t stress yourself out, enjoy a deep breath of fresh air, and above all…. love and cherish every moment you get for it may be snatched from you in an instant.