When is it time to let go? Why is it so hard for us to realize when this time has come? Seems that we do realize that the time has come, but we don’t want to acknowledge this. Is it our selfish nature that makes us hold on? How do we distinguish between the signals that state it is time to let go and the time when we are just too nervous to know its time to hold on?
Entries tagged as ‘Choices’
Time
February 10, 2009 · 2 Comments
It is said that Time is the greatest healer of all. It’s been a long time and as I go back in time, i see how true that is. Even though it has been a good while, it still feels like just yesterday, yet I find myself on the verge of a life changing milestone in my life. My life has changed dramatically in the last 3 years. Not even two years ago, I was living in Texas. Now I’m living in Arkansas – of all places! Yet, I have experienced many changes in my life and observed many big changes for the better.
No one can tell what tomorrow may bring, one thing I have learned is to have some faith and trust everything will be better tomorrow – whenever that may come.
Categories: Life · Thoughts
Tagged: Believe, Choices, Life, Thoughts
Lessons Not Learned
April 22, 2007 · 3 Comments
We’ve all been victims to it at one time or another – we go decide on something and immediately acting on it we think, “what in the world was I thinking!?” Even after coming into a similar situation, the same choice is made with the same consequence. Why do we do this to ourselves. Had we not learned our lesson the first time this happened? Do we like to feel disappointed? Are we not thinking with our hearts? Ah, there’s the problem – the heart. Such a deceitful and complicated thing. Some times it seems as our hearts are torn between the two choices, other times it seems as if the heart pleads with the brain to give the other choice a second chance – maybe this time will be different. However, the brain seems to always know it made the wrong decision immediately afterwards – or is it the other way around.
There lies the other problem – who is who in the decision making process? Sometimes I think I have more than one heart; other times I wish I was a cold hearted person that didn’t care. The reality is that I care too much and think we are all fundamentally good people. I don’t like disappointing people, but I find myself disappointing too many people – and all too frequently. Funny thing is that I do it while trying to appease everyone. What about pleasing Oscar?
Categories: Life · Observations
Tagged: Choices, Disappointments, family, Friends, Love, Observations
How Do You Prefer To Learn About New Subjects?
April 10, 2007 · 1 Comment
I’m currently conducting a poll for my research in my Senior Project.
Help me out by voting and asking others to vote as well.
Thank you!
Categories: Observations
Tagged: Choices, Observations, School, Uncategorized
Life Changing Decisions Suck
January 5, 2007 · Leave a Comment
Eyes squinting and with a yawn I clicked on “Send/Receive” on outlook and to my surprise, a certain email message appeared that I had been waiting for 2 weeks ago – an update on a job interview. I had a feeling the five interviews had gone well since I did get a “wow” and a “good answer” a couple of times from the managers – and this email confirmed it. “The results of your interviews were very positive”, everything sounds good so far; a dream job, secure environment, awesome metropolitan area, high advancement opportunities and an opportunity to obtain my Masters in a prestigious University. Just one tiny little problem – they can’t extend job offers for lack of a budget at this time and plan to do so in February. Now for the huge problem – I already accepted an offer with another company. The plan had been to have both offers on the table a week before the first one required an answer – that way I had a holiday break to decide with the help of my family and friends. That never happened and a response wasn’t even received. Dissapointed and nervous, I accepted the job offer that I had received in November since it was the only one extended to me. I won’t start in either place untill after I graduate and the six months time is what’s making me think of responding to this company and asking them to consider me for the job. I know that’s the selfish thing to do and probably won’t be favorable for the University I’m reprasenting, but I need to look after my career future first. It also helps that the job offer letter states “Your employment relationship with [company name] will be on an at-will basis, which means either you or [company name] will be free to terminate your employment relationship at any time for any reason”. I realize they included that in there for their personal advantage, but it seems as my excuse to seek an alternative choice. I know people apply for jobs with other companies while still being employed, but this situation is a little different – right? Is persuing this other job the right thing to do for me at this time?
Categories: Life
Tagged: Choices, Debate, Ethics, Perplexing, School
Long Waits, Tests and Good Luck
December 28, 2006 · Leave a Comment
I was able to talk to an Xbox tech support rep today. Luckily, Microsoft is going to pick up the bill on this one and will be sending me a box so that I can ship out my console for repair. I just hope it will be back will plenty of time left in the holidays to do some gaming. Although this semester I’m only taking 12 hours and 3 of those are not a class, I know this semester will not be any easier. Following the note of good fortune, I was able to talk to Vannessa from Walmart to accept the Job Offer and obtain the instructions for the next step – criminal background and drug tests. She told me that I had untill tommorow to take the test or the offer would be voided, so I almost freaked out when I arrived at the testing facility to find a big sign that read “Closed for the holidays: Dec. 22 – Jan. 02″. As I took out my cell phone to make a call, one of the employees opened the door and asked if I was Oscar Cantu. Turns out they were called in just for me. I felt special that they opened just for me, yet bad that they had to come in on their day off. I guess that’s in their Job description, nevertheless, they still had to go in the office just for me to essentially go to the bathroom. As I watched the lady do her thing on the computer, I couldn’t help but think what it would be like to be the one analyzing so many urine samples every day. How would you tell people what you do for a living? I would assume they can just say they are chemist for a laboratory, analyzing chemicals from different origins. That wouldn’t be so bad.
All At Once
November 6, 2006 · Leave a Comment
Time seems to come and go, without mercy, no prisoners. I must dominate this beast for it keeps beating me to the punch. The last time I wrote a post is proof enough. So many decisions to make, so much work still to be done, so many pages to read, so many tests to take … yet the days are still 24 hours short and my body keeps pleading for sleep. Being sick sure doesn’t help the situation! Today has been a crazy day, I found myself really thinking of the future now that it seems so close and so real. Apparently I scored very high on two tests I took this past weekend. I couldn’t believe my ears since they were extremely tough and took about 3 hours each. I guess patience paid off – and the books I have! However, I find myself with a trip to San Francisco later this month and some major life changing decisions to make ahead. It is these times that I miss that lost guidance even more so. I have confidence that the decision I make will be the correct one, but arriving at that key decision will be quite the challenge. Ah, how I love challenges, tests, projects and tons of pages to read! Gives me purpose and is the antidote for boredom!
